Abuse
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Lorenzo Anzaldua
Acting like I’m fine knowing that I’m not
Knowing next time I do something wrong
The next belting will begin
The pounding on my skin
isn’t this a sin?
This big red mark
Then laying in the dark
Playing hide and seek from the abuser
I don't wanna play this game anymore I’m always the loser
Hiding all the marks
Scattered across my body parts
Putting on a fake smile
It worked for a while
Flinching when people move
But that’s the fact that no one knew, how to prove,
The reaction of flinching when you know it’s coming
A bomb going off with the aftermath incoming
The damage is done but not on the inside
But always look on the bright side
“You know how to take a punch” they said
But a punch always leads to bloodshed
Like an army leads to war
Like how rain leads to a downpour
Background: Back when I was younger I didn't see my dad a lot, although when I did see him the few times I would go, my younger brother would abuse me. I'm not going to get into details, but at the time I didn't realize what it was until I got older and it broke me. I feel like I knew but didn't connect the dots in my brain. At the time I thought it was just him messing around although it was not. It caused me to flinch whenever someone made a fast or sudden movement towards me, and has affected me in so many ways. I just hope anyone that is in a situation like that tries to reach out and find some sort of help. What helps me is to write and talk about my problems, and that's what caused me to share my poem.